Baby Jane

the 10th month

2011-10-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

Can you imagine it's almost the end of 2011. I mean what the hell did I do this year? oh well. besides wasting time procrastinating throughout my studies and assignments.. and I almost remember working my internship for two months earlier this year.. and then there's breaking people's hearts which is what i do best somehow.. and yeah.. here I am 2 months away from 2012 and we don't even know if the world is going to end! LOL.. My friend Kevin refuses to watch the movie 2012 until 2012 actually comes.. Then I guess the people that freaked out initially can like just slap themselves in the face silly. Lol. I mean it's crazy sometimes when you read in the papers about people selling all their property and quiting their jobs because some loonatic said the world was gonna end. I mean seriously??? If someone told you eating poop is gonna make you look prettier would you do it??? err.. but then again I have heard of some people that actually eat... cow dunk... for health.... like... seriously... no joke.............. *brrrrrr....* gotta shake the image off.. I feel my chocolate cake and vanilla ice cream knocking on my tummy walls.. lol.. ugh.. I am putting on weight like mad and it's not even funny.. dont you dare laugh =_=...

Well a lot has happened this year like I said.. oh.. i think the last time I blogged was like July,. so since then I celebrated my 22nd Birthday.. woohoo me.. :) and I passed my first semester.. celebrated Raya and plenty of birthdays.. and well I cant recall much except for what has happened lately and that is my prom night.. omg.. that was an experience of a lifetime.. Well I took part in the Ms Monash competition and well basically five girls are chosen out of the bunch that shamelessly audition just like yours truly.. and well we go through photoshoots and fittings and well just spend some time together and then on that night we finally perform for the audience at the ball and everyone gets to vote for their favourite... I would Loveee to say I won.. but I didn't.. lol.. anyways, congratulations to Tse Leng that won.. she's a gorgeous girl with a great personality and hell that woman can shake her body at belly dancing! haha.. that was her talent performance by the way... and mine was singing.. which I was sooooo bloody nervous that I went out of tune and though ppl kept telling me I didnt... I think I know enough music and have done enough singing in church to know that I definitelyyyy went off somewhere.. LOL.. oh well.. it's God's will.. probably coz i'll have too much pride if I win.. sooo much of prizeeessss... eeEEeeee... *squeels in jealousy*... I kid.. lol.. but honestly.. it was soooo much of fun.. meeting the 4 other girls and 5 other guys.. I mean.. I didn't think people that nice and friendly existed in uni.. lol.. It's too bad i'm leavin this semester.. would've love to have gotten to know them better.. :)

Gonna miss you guys!! Hugs to Joanna, Nisha, Tse Leng, Allysha, Andy, Ilyas, Gian Yang, Joo Ztat and Justin my partner! lol.. awesome time.. awesome memories! :)

Tse Leng (Ms Monash), Nisha, Joo Ztat (Mr Monash), Andy, Ilyas, Justin, Me, Joanna, Allysha and Gian Yang

Now two weeks left to finish my never ending thesis and study for my final final final semester. Oh God help me.. well before I end I just wanna leave with this quote I heard from the show "Letters to Juliet".. lovely :)

'What' and ‘if’ two words as non-threatening as words come. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life:

‘What if?'..."

"I don't know how your story ended.But I know that if what you felt then was love - true love - then it's never too late. If it was true then it why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart..."

"I don't know what a love like that feels like... a love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for... but I'd like to believe if ever felt it. I'd have the courage to seize it. I hope you had the courage to seize it, Claire. And if you didn't, I hope one day that you will."

- Letters to Juliet

I'm sorry our love wasn't true.. maybe it was to you but it wasn't to me.. and I apologize for allowing it to go this far.. The words I said in the past are kept in the past.. I wish you all the best.. and I know I have no right to just say this and I know It's not as easy as I put it to be.. But I hope you move on and find true love someday.. I wish you all the best for the future.. and once again i'm sorry. This concludes my explanations and my defending and all this related.. Thanks for trying.. Goodbye

The race

2011-08-13T21:21:00.002+08:00

Thanks. You are the only one who talks sense into me. This sounds familiar.

2011-08-10T14:22:00.001+08:00

Cause they’ll bring you down, down, down x4

Don’t keep yourself away
Don’t live your life that way
Of course he’s gonna say anything you want
Then leave quicker than he came now you got yourself to blame
Don’t put yourself back in the fire again

It’s the same damn things you’re so quick to believe
You do it over and over again
And it’s the same mistakes that I’m watching you make
You do it over and over again

So before they bring you down
You’ve gotta stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
Fall for anything
You’ve gotta stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
Fall for anything

Cause they’ll bring you down, down, down x4

Oh, please don’t be so naïve
Don’t wait ‘till your heart bleeds
Love wasn’t built for speed, listen to me girl
He keeps fuckin’ with your head, tryna get you into bed
And in the morning you’ll just hate yourself

It’s the same damn things you’re so quick to believe
You do it over and over again
And it’s the same mistakes that I’m watching you make
You do it over and over again

So before they bring you down
You’ve gotta stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
Fall for anything
You’ve gotta stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
Fall for anything

Cause they’ll bring you down, down, down x4

And you give until there’s nothing to give
Until there’s nothing to give
Until there’s nothing to give x3

Before they bring you down
You’ve gotta stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
Fall for anything
You’ve gotta stand for something or you’ll fall for everything
Fall for anything
You’ve gotta stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
Fall for anything
You’ve gotta stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
Fall for anything

Before they break you down, down, down
Cause girl they’ll bring you down, down, down
Cause they’ll bring you down, down, down
Cause they’ll bring you down, down, down

is this real?

2011-08-10T12:44:00.000+08:00

Time passes and life goes on,
I cant keep holding on to all that's happened to me,
but how does someone look pass everything else?
it's like i'm choosing not to be selfish when in the end the decisions i make reflects the very opposite
wanting to do what is right sometimes just dont seem right in the eyes of others.
Especially when they dont wanna see the truth.
dont wanna accept reality
I dont know how to accept it myself but i'm learning.
I can't keep holding on to this
to everything that affects me.
Like a Balloon holding air.. the more it builts up..
i'm gonna explode.. and I can't do this anymore..
I can't keep up with the turning tables.

big girl's blouse~

2011-07-26T20:05:00.000+08:00

Fine. i'm a coward. I know however, that I have always cherished and appreciated honesty. Yes, no matter how sucky the truth is, I would prefer the honest truth or opinion rather than the meaningless white lie.

However, there are two kinds of honesty in this world.

1. Honesty because you love someone and care for them
or
2. Honesty with the intention to hurt someone

And basically all that comes from your mouth stinks of the latter. Asshole. I dont need you to look at me with your judgemental eyes and laugh at me in the state that I am. Yes I am stressed and wasnt looking too good and yes I have gained a lot of weight. But there is no reason for you to intentionally dwell on the matter because in the end you know shit about me and what i'm going through. and dont think I dont know what you talk about behind my back. You should see yourself in the mirror and remember who you were before this. Because you seriously lost yourself somewhere along the way and I truly hope and pray you find yourself again.
So thanks. but No thanks. Keep it to yourself.

Honesty. I appreciate it. With the right intention in mind.

Time is ticking. Woops

2011-07-26T12:57:00.000+08:00

The month of Birthdays arrived and it only made me realize how quickly we are all growing up and how much we've been through getting to where we are. Its amazing how each person's life has changed over time and how we look at issues nowadays. The things we found important back when we were younger all seem so insignificant now as we look towards the bigger picture in life. As we all continue on our journey in life. I pray we will always be there to support each other :) Love you all. Thanks for always being there for me :)

Happy Birthday Jo-Ann :)

All the best in your future undertakings! You always had the craziest laughter and the more hyper personality! lol but that's your charm. Dont turn Queensland upside down ya! haha

Happy Birthday Vanessa! :)

Hey babes, you're getting more gorgeous by the day. You are really one crazy and funny person.
Thanks for listening to my random complaints. All the best in all you do!

You're fabulous! :)

Happy Birthday Wai Ming! :)

Hey tall fella! i like this picture. You look short. LOL

Anyways, thanks for being a great friend. You're one of the kindest people i know. Well to me la.. not to Ju Beng.. hahaha and You've graduated!! so i wish u all the best in ur future undertakings. When you're rich, dont forget the rest of us engineers k.. lol

Happy Birthday Cally! :)

Hey gorgeous! You're growing more and more beautiful by the day. Our lives has changed so much over the years and it feels great to know i can still talk to you when we meet up once in a blue moon! haha.

All the best in your studies k :)

Love you loads!

Happy Birthday Aunty Doris! :)

I've never seen a tiny person eat as much as you aunty!! haha

Love you loads. Hope you had a good birthday celebration!

Happy Birthday Rachel! :)

Hey sweating! lol My-oh-my have you grown up. I still remember when you used to be 13!! and it's crazy how matured you are now. I swear sometimes i feel like you are older than us. haha. You're growing more beautiful by the day and i wish you all the best in UK k.. Dont worry. You'll do great.

Love ya! :)

Happy Birthday Su Ann! :)

Planet Botak Su! akakaka.. i've known you since kindergarten.. The first thing i have to say is.. HOW DID I TAHAN YOU ALL THESE YEARS?? zzzz.. lucky i didn't know you in primary school.. if not, i'll die edi wor... hahahah just kidding!!! It's so funny how we always seem to understand each other and similar things always happen in our lives. and when we catch up after MONTHS of postponing getogethers, it's like high school all over again! It's so easy to talk to you! lol. You're a wonderful person. Thanks for being a great friend. Love ya! :)

This is your Life

2011-07-24T16:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

yesterday is a kid in the corner
yesterday is dead and over

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/s/switchfoot-lyrics/this-is-your-life-lyrics.html]
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes

this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life are you who you want to be

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

and you had everything to lose

Familiar Feeling

2011-07-06T03:18:00.000+08:00

Ever felt like you were just watching a movie of your life and the main character which is yourself, doesn't really seem like you anymore? I feel numb to my own emotions. I'm sad to the point of silence, angry to the point of tears and when i'm lonely, all i hear are my thoughts. I dont even know why i'm writing this. and i can't figure out words to blog. Usually i have a story to tell.. or something i thought about to write.. but i just realized nothing really is about myself even though i'm writing about myself when i blog.. dont know if you understand what i'm trying to say, but that's just it.. what the hell is wrong with me?.. what happened to me?.. i dont know how to blogs about a party i went to.. or tell a story about something funny that happened.. or laugh about my day.. tell love stories of my life.. i dont know how to do all that anymore.. I keep wondering what ppl's first impressions of me are like?.. and what are their thoughts about me?.. how is it that i struggle so hard to have conversations with people sometimes.. worst of all i realized is that i dont even know how to keep a friend.. i never did.. do my friends think i'm weird when i have nothing to say sometimes? do they think i'm being cold or do they think i'm boring?.. maybe i am.. coz i dont do things ppl usually do.. i dont go out partying.. i dont exactly shop anymore.. if i watch a movie or smth.. i forget half of it the moment i walk out the cinema.. so what's there to talk about movies?.. how do i intend to keep friends if i can't even socialize?.. i dont like calling ppl coz i really just dont know what to talk about.. i dunno if this is a phase in my life of depression i'm going through or maybe i have bipolar disorder? lol. u know what they say.. once you hear about a kinda disease, you tend to think you have it.. or find reasons to associate yourself to it.. i thought i had a life and a plan for my future.. but now.. as ppl start to leave... as friends find new friends.. as my studies are ending.. i realize i have.. nothing..
Help me find myself... please...

Fly Away Birdie~

2011-07-04T16:22:00.000+08:00

So i switched from Vampire Diaries to Pretty Little Liars now.. i cant say it's as interesting. but it's something to fill my time.. Vampire diaries was just too damn awesome.. anyhoos.. I fried some pancakes for my Daddy's birthday.. it was awesome.. Thanks shamus for the recipe :)

Last week was Jo-Ann's birthday and the theme was Naughty or Nice.. what a fun night to release the stress i felt throughout the week.. a little too much alcohol but it was fun :P

Last week was tough and i know this week isnt gonna be any better.. but i'm gonna be optimistic for the first time in my life towards the future because i know there's a bright one ahead.. even though the journey is long and rough.. My heart is going round and round in circles and i hope it still holds together..

Love this song

2011-06-12T17:33:00.001+08:00

The wake of Devastation~

2011-06-12T15:05:00.000+08:00

Rain is pouring hard now. Out of nowhere i looked up and saw the crazy blizzard. It's so heavy i swear it looks like haze. Just a mere grey outside. Nothing more. and considering i have my headphones on blasting at the loudest volume, I totally didnt notice the rain till i looked up. I think that's how my life is lately. I feel fine. sometimes. Like nothing is wrong. everything is going according to plan. i'm fine. great. fine. You know what they say about being fine? Freaked-out, Insecure, Neurotic, and Emotional. The person that came up with this is either a genius or he was as Fine as how he defined it to be. Lol. But yeah. it's so easy to go on by pretending that nothing is wrong instead of acknowledging it. When i feel the down emotions coming on. I brush it off or I post it on fb. Lol. Life has come down to that pathetic state. But there has to be a point where we all say F- it and deal with your damn fears.. What scares me the most? Losing. I mean i dont mean to sound like a sore loser or a competitive nut. What i mean by losing is losing anything, everything, people. What if one day you wake up and you realize you have nothing? This fear of losing makes you hold on to things tighter. So tight that you fool yourself. You think that the more you try or the harder you try, you wont lose. and sometimes you go so far in trying not to lose something/someone you hold so tight to the reality you made up in your own head, that in the end all your doing is hurting the other person. It's kinda like holding a soap bar in your hand.. The harder you squeeze on it. The easier it slips away. Maybe we hold so tight onto someone that we dont give them space to breathe? This fear of losing drives us to do so many things. Unnecessary or not. It drives us. Really, how far are we willing to go? I know deep down all of us have this fear. Because really, whats the point of living in the world, having everything and nothing at the same time. It's like the movies where the rich guy has everything, all the luxury in the world and all the things that money can buy, but at the same time, he's the loneliest person at heart. I'm saying this because money cant buy happiness and neither can Fear. I think of everything that is capable of being lost in my life and the thing that scares me most is losing my faith. After all, everything leaves in this world, people, clothes, cars, careers, money.. in the end when we leave earth, it all comes down to God and when I stand in front of God when the day comes.. what exactly do I say? am i prepared today if life were to end tomoro? What have I accomplished in life? The fear. Fear of God is what drives me the most but yet the fear of everything else is conquering my life right now. Fear of failing my exams. Fear of losing the people I love. Fear of driving away the people who care. I woke up this morning in a mode of sudden depression and it felt like I lost myself for a moment. I dont do the things I usually do anymore and I dont feel the same way. I guess it's the transition period in my life. When i'm slowly moving deeper into adulthood. It's so easy to depend on someone else but the more we do that, the more we lose our own strength and the more we depend on other people's strength rather than God's strength. I can hold on to things and can run to someone else the moment I feel scared or insecure or regretful.. But in the end, I have to let go and grow on my own. When life gets comfortable, that's when it's the hardest to grow. We're so contented in everything we do, that we dont want change and when a challenge comes our way, we fall. Because we are not prepared for changes. Like i said before. Change is good. and change drives us. If there's no challenges in our life. We'll never grow. When life gets uneasy, insecure, that's your window of opportunity. Take it.

Breathe - Taylor Swift

2011-06-05T14:06:00.002+08:00

First time i'm agreeing to a Taylor Swift song.
I like how music speaks to ur soul.

Lyrics:
http://www.metrolyrics.com/breathe-lyrics-taylor-swift.html

so long?

2011-06-02T17:27:00.000+08:00

“I do not say ‘good-bye.’ I believe that’s one of the bullshittiest words ever invented. It’s not like you’re given the choice to say ‘bad-bye’ or ‘awful-bye’ or ‘couldn’t-care-less-about-you-bye.’ Every time you leave, it’s supposed to be a good one. Well, I don’t believe in that. I believe against that.”

—	John Green (Will Grayson)

You know~

2011-06-02T17:24:00.002+08:00

You just do...

Falling slowly~

2011-05-29T19:54:00.000+08:00

In a way I didnt know what to expect this weekend but half of me was looking forward to it and the other was dreading it. But either way, there was something I knew I had to learn this weekend. This whole week was a crazy one indeed. Three assignments due on Friday and one computer programming demonstration on thursday (which I may add i totally screwed up so badly that the tutor had a good laugh at me) Anyways, I would have to say I divided my time quite well and rotated my work throughout the week.. I woke up at 8am on Friday and powered through to finish the assignments.. No distractions, no internet, no facebook (curse you facebook for being so addictive) and no food.. and I hit the computer and nothing held me back.. By 12 noon, I finished everything and was ready to hand up all my assignments and so I did.. with one last breath I returned to where my friends were sitting.. sat down.. let out one large sigh.. and realized i'm all done.. A smile spread across my face.. a sense of satisfaction of my hardwork and perseverence.. focus and determination (cheh-wah-kembang-gila).. But yeah.. It was all done.. the last day of the semester.. time just flew by.. and it was finally the end.. Finals is in two weeks which is another major bummer.. then it's one more cycle for the final semester and then i'm done for good. no more education.. no more university.. no more insecurity from the eyes of strangers staring at you as you walk by. and no more crappy food.. but yeah.. back to where I was telling the story.. so i was sitting there..with satisfaction..but in a blink of a moment, the feeling disappeared and I suddenly felt like.. like.. I had no more purpose in life (which is so not true because I know God has a big purpose for me but I just dont know it yet),. But just for that moment, thats what I felt.. throughout this whole semester all I have been doing is work work work, meeting deadlines and when I was finally done.. I wish I had something to do.. my friends asked me to stay back for lunch but in truth I actually wanted to go home and be alone.. but I had no change for parking somehow so in the end I decided to stay.. and as I sat there waiting for my friends to finish my work I realized what I was running away from all this time.. throughout these few weeks of running away and studying on my own or going home rather than joining them.. I was afraid of facing the truth and the fact that I feel so left out and alone now.. I felt a bit like I had no connection to anyone around me and I guess cutting it off initially was the easier way to move on and deal with my break up but then again.. Now it just felt like I missed out..but indeed my friends are nice people and no matter how quiet you are or how long you have been away.. they would randomly come up with a crazy story or theory to talk about that you somehow have to engage in conversation to either defend your opinions or listen to crazy controversial theories in life. well its funny but i'm thankful for them.. Then the weekend ends and i'm back home.. church gave me a bit time to fill my empty schedule.. but saturday was a whole different story.. woke up,, ate lunch.. slept back.. woke up.. ate dinner.. supper.. then slept back.. what a day.. it felt so short.. so unpurposeful.. but yet it helped me escape once again.. Then today here I am, sitting in starbucks (which I seriously should not come so often because i'm getting flat broke), listening to old songs which I used to love and songs from the 90's and the millenium, surfing the net, creating more picture posts, while all this time being.. alone.. Alone.. what a powerful singular word that defines so much for a person or situation and at the same time tells us nothing of the person or the person he/she is in.. what conclusion would you draw of a girl sitting alone in starbucks for hours doing nothing but typing vigorously on the laptop looking like she's doing something utterly important but in actual fact she's blowing her mind out on blogger.. LOL life is funny.. I know I say it way too much but life really is Funny!! I sometimes randomly burst out in laughter when life brings me lemons. LOL but yeah.. Alone.. I'm sitting here.. missing you.. but at the same time.. i'm happy and at peace.. and I know I'll be fine.. but there was a time in my life where I was never alone.. never wondering what to do.. never planning.. everyone was around.. constantly getting calls to go hang out at the mamak, watch a movie or just randomly drive from place to place with nothing to do.. haha (miss the four of you! and miss our random times! miss the noisy Satria that brought us around! lol).. But people's life change.. people move on,. people go places.. get a job.. and someday.. everyone is going to drift apart.. no matter how much we tell ourselves we will keep in touch.. things will never be the same again.. marriage.. kids.. things change and I guess i'm at that point in my life where I have started accepting CHANGE..or rather I am learning and slowly accepting it.. and its coming so quick.. my mind is ready but my heart is still hanging on a tiny string of hope that things remain the same.. "The Hardest Thing" by 98 Degrees is playing on my windows media player now.. lol so ironic.. You can hold on to everything you have around you and wish things to stay the same.. but they are never gonna stay the same.. science says that Change is the only Constant thing in our lives which is inevitably true.. and I am accepting change as it comes by.. some are good.. some are bad.. and the bad will teach me valuable lessons in life.. I am changing.. alone or not.. I'm embracing time as it passes and I pray you do too :) All the best in life, readers.. In case you havent been hearing it enough, I love you. Whoever you are reading this.. why? because God first loved me and now I can love you too.

Have a good week ahead :)

Take this sinking boat and point it home.

2011-05-29T17:25:00.000+08:00

Cry Balls.

2011-05-28T13:42:00.001+08:00

Destiny's child

2011-05-28T12:55:00.002+08:00

I miss the 90's!!!! :(

I wish it for myself~

2011-05-23T13:40:00.000+08:00

I have a newest addiction lately. Finding nice photos and writing my own captions to them. Maybe someday I can take my own photographs and write my captions. I was just thinking.. it'll be kinda funny right if someone came by my blog and saw their own picture there.. LOL!! i mean i would so totally freak out if i saw my picture in someone elses blog having the captions like.. "my heart is broken" or something like that.. what if my heart wasnt broken at all in that picture? i mean what if it was just a moment where my face looked sad?? if everyone gonna think i'm depressed or something?? LOL!!! sooooo... if anyone comes by my blog and sees their picture being used with my retarded captions, I firstly wanna say i'm truly sorry for misinterpreting your picture if I did so in any way.. and secondly I'll say I obtain most or all of my pictures from Google.. So go blame them! LOL Love all

Anyways, my days have been hectic.. seriously, so much of work. Omg.. I can't wait for this year to be over.. then i'm done with studying.. most people dont wanna end their studying life but how come i've always wanted to end it.. i mean.. ever since primary school i look forward to secondary school, then i look forward to college, then university and very soon before I know it, It'll all be over.. then what do I look forward to? Scary in a way.. Scary also how much sometimes I want time to pass.. But when it does.. Then i miss the past.. Seriously.. humans can never be satified can we?.. I sit here thinking about people and how they walk in and out of my life so often.. there are times you meet someone and realize.. hey.. we used to know each other pretty well?? how come i dont remember.. then you rememeber the moment you connected with that person.. and suddenly it feels like lifetime's ago.. and when I remember my emotions at that moment, I wonder how come I dont feel the same now.. I mean where did it go? I hope you understand what I'm saying.. but basically it's crazy how the heart and mind changes over the years.. I feel that it's experiences that mould you to be who you are.. We learn from experiences and by observing the experiences of others.. but it's our choice in the end to choose whether to act on known facts or take our own chances and risks on whether we would make the same mistakes again.. funny right life?

So to everyone I have shared my life with for the past 21 years and 10 months, thanks for walking into my life and leaving a footprint. Whether it was a small step or a deep hole (LOL), thanks....
You made me who I am today.. whether you know it or not.. Thanks :)

I'm looking forward to this next journey in my life.. I can feel it's coming and I'm hoping to grow more.. not to make the same mistakes but to make new ones and learn more..

Good mistakes. Not bad ones ;)

basic apparations of my soul

2011-05-23T13:28:00.000+08:00

The Assasination

2011-05-20T20:46:00.000+08:00

I dont want to be back here. I thought i was over it. I dont want to be here again. I dont want to. I cant do this again. Years of battles. and here i am again. I cant do this. I cant do this. I dont want to. I have a problem. and I i'm over it. Another moment of weakness. another day. I dont want this. i dont need this. I dont need this. I dont want this.

sorry. just needed to let this out somewhere.

Faith takes us places

2011-05-18T13:37:00.000+08:00

I am....

2011-05-12T10:52:00.000+08:00

11 pounds heavier,

but 10 times happier.

I'll live with it.

Watched Greys Anatomy today and felt my maternal instincts. LOL

2011-05-12T01:52:00.002+08:00

Who says?

2011-05-10T14:06:00.000+08:00

What a day :)

2011-05-09T13:56:00.002+08:00

All you need is a little fresh air

2011-05-08T10:57:00.000+08:00

and then you get more...... :)

2011-05-07T19:14:00.000+08:00

What drives?

2011-05-06T13:18:00.001+08:00

Its funny how the very thing that brings you down

and the very thing that drives you is..

Fear..

I guess then it's how we use this fear to benefit ourselves or others.

Nothing you fear can just be something bad.

Everything can be turned into something good.

Think about it.

If you fear death, you'll strive to live.

If you fear getting hurt, you'll grow stronger.

If you fear God, you'll serve him better.

If you fear losing, you'll put your all in doing best.

Nothing can be all bad.

Nope.

Never.

What are you afraid of?

Why do you fear it?

How can you use this fear for your advantage?

What's my fear....?

Sick food

2011-05-05T13:14:00.000+08:00

Porridge.

HAHA.

*bluek*

via google images

thanks =)

~Storm by Lifehouse~

2011-05-03T12:27:00.002+08:00

how long have I
been in this storm
so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
water's getting harder to tread
with these waves crashing over my head

if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I'd see you
the storminess will turn to light

and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and everything will be alright

I know you didn't
bring me out here to drown
so why am I 10 feet under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I see you
the storminess will turn to light

and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright

and I will walk on water
you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
everything's alright

Life slips away

2011-05-02T15:12:00.000+08:00

There are two things i'm confused about...
One being how I feel and the other being how i'm Suppose to feel...

You grow up knowing the difference between being happy, sad, angry and so on.. But no one really teaches you WHEN exactly you are suppose to have these feelings.. In what situation exactly.. I mean how would you know what sadness was if someone didnt tell you that death is suppose to make you sad... What if you dont feel the same way.. Does that mean there's something wrong with you? If you choose to feel different than what the normal person feels.. Because naturally psychopaths only feel different than others.. or rather, they have no feelings at all.. No remorse. No regrets... Some say they are not human but in reality they still are..? So how are we suppose to feel really when certain drastic situations occur..

So many things have happened in my life where I know how i'm SUPPOSE to feel.. but what if i dont feel the way i'm suppose to... I'm suppose to feel sad about something.. but I'm happy about something else... Does that make me inhumane or wrong? No. It makes me different... The world sets standards on how you should be.. and what society should conform to.. but what is it actually? who are we measuring ourselves up to when we race to be on top.. when we try to achieve so much success in life... Are we running an imaginary race with Steve Jobs to create the next mind blowing technology? Or struggling to follow Mark Zuckerberg's genius success.. I mean really.. What if i'm happy doing the little things in life... selling coffee, washing cars or working at a local coffeeshop.. does that define my life as a failure in comparison... The world tells You what should be.. and naturally when the majority of people conform to the idea of how things should be.. Then the fact is produced on that matter.. But really.. who would define that thin was beautiful if not for the worldly views.. Life makes no sense sometimes..

Back to myself, since it's my blog (omg i'm so selfish)... well no one told me how to handle the situation i'm in now..No one told me whether i should be happy or sad.. and it worries me.. worries me whether i'm doing the right thing or feeling the right thing.. but yet i feel what i feel.. the only real connection i have right now is between God and me... the rest to the world seems vague at the moment.. I feel like i'm in my own world.. in my own dream.. but i'm afraid that i'll wake up to find it all untrue... i'm such a confused person it's not even funny... is a person really suppose to think this much??? erh.. how much of my brain is really being used.. Unfortunately it is all used for thoughts instead of studying.. bleh.. gotta get back to my work soon...

but yeah.. wish i knew what i should feel right now...
"I'm Numb to my own feelings... Paralysed to my situation... Delusional in my thoughts.."
Thats all. Thanks. Bye.

I wish you didn't do what you did, I wish you didnt lose your way, I wish you didn't hurt us all, I wish you didnt regret it, I wish you didn't lie, I wish you repented, I wish you apologised, I wish you payed more attention, I wish you forgave everyone, I wish I didn't hate you so much, I wish we were there more, I wish I could have helped, I wish I said sorry.. I wish I'd let go.
despite that, I forgive you...I pray to God, and plead to him, that somehow, you rest in peace..... Rest in Peace....

something that bugs me

2011-04-27T12:36:00.000+08:00

hmm. cant believe it's the holidays and yet half of it is already gone. where on earth does time fly to?
Is it me or when u get older, things just start to move faster... it's like clocks magically start ticking at more than a second per tick.. and ppl start walking three to four steps more than usual.. or is the world just catching on to this speed that no one realizes that they are going faster and faster by the day...
seriously, its crazy! I came to starbucks at 11:30 am.. and i swore to myself.. "ok..i'm gonna finish all my work today, so i dont have to stress anymore, and i can enjoy my weekend"... so i thought.. buy a drink, relax.. read some facebook and blogs first and before u know it.. BAM! it's 12 something.. argh..

TIME... you are a pain in my arse...

But yeah. things move so quickly nowadays. Do ppl even stop to smell the roses anymore? Ok maybe ppl do but i feel like things go so unappreciatted these days.. and it's true.. We forget to tell our loved ones we love them before we leave the house.. we forget to put our dirty clothes in the laundry.. or we forget to close the windows.. or we forget to bring our headphones to starbucks and feel like an idiot when u're here... and you forget to tell the ppl you've hurt, you're sorry... yeah.. things like this happen.. Dont you find it funny that it's so easy to forget sometimes? To just move on and pretend things never happened.. I find it pretty easy however... But not when it affects my heart.. Some say.. move on u know.. it happened.. everyone goes through it.. but really.. how do u? So i think to myself.. if this affects my heart so badly.. what about the ppl which I have affected in my life?... Then it dawns on me... the Guilt of living this life... only my Father in Heaven can tell me what to do next... but i am only human.. and my feelings are all part of my human self.. but my soul is my other half.. what my Father tells me to do.. My soul makes me do it.. even when my human self has to suffer.. well no worries.. i'm learning day by day... and this hurt which i have caused on others... I will have to mend it someday... but in due time.. only the Father can heal it.. and so i leave it to him... I on the other hand.. have to learn how to move on in my own terms.. at my own pace and time.. There's no rushing into things.. something i realized that day was that my whole life has been a rush.. everyone and everything seemed to be pushing me into things.. but this time.. i'm taking it slow.. this time i wanna do things right... there's no rush.. but there's determination... I am not rushing.. but I am determined.. hopefully this time i got my priorities in check.. :)

With this.. I say to You.. I'm sorry that it didn't work out.. but things are not meant to be.. It may be in your eyes.. but then that's just the idea you like in your head. The truth is.. I dont feel the same way.. and someday you will accept that.. I'm sorry for everything.. but too much has happened and too much for me to change my mind... there's nothing left.. I will always care.. and you will always be my friend.. it will just take time.. But on a last note. It's over. Let go.. for your own sake..

P.s: dont call me after reading this

ooo

2011-04-25T14:54:00.002+08:00

wow. look what i found from an old old post.

"If you dont like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Dont complain."
-Maya Angelou.

awakening

2011-04-25T14:40:00.001+08:00

It's Easter holiday! finally!! i felt sooo happy the moment it hit Friday. It felt like i finally had a break. But then i rememebered there was the 30% assignment i had to do, internship report to finish, final year project to work on.. the stress piles up again.. but true enough, a holiday is still a holiday and it felt good that i didn't have to go uni to face anything..

Things were great over the weekend. It's Easter! Jesus is pinned to the sky! For God so loved the world, he gave his son to redeem the world. and lo, he is with us always, even to the ends of the earth.
*haha.. remember this one guys?*

But yeah, i was sitting there after mass alone, listening to the Easter song.. my favourite part of Easter.. and i felt a sense of peace in my heart.. I quote a good friend of mine.. Where else can this peace come from if not from the Father... and it's true... i sat there smiling to myself and thanking the Lord.. my goodness what a difference he has made in my life.. and true enough.. if he never came into my life.. i wouldn't be here today.. wouldnt be where i am.. I love you, Lord.. with all my heart, soul, mind and strength... :)

angie, roeshan, kath, me, ivy, chrishen, caren and lyn

i wanted to be in between the towers. lol. kev and shamus

the two nut cases :)

gooodddd boyyy.... hahaha

kevin, patrick, victor "cow" and sheldon

Well there was a loooootttt of eating involved.. particularly a lot of meat.. 40 days of fasting from meat realllyyy builds your craving to sink your teeth into some hard.. juicy.. meat.. hahaha.. omg.. i sound like a cannibal.. but yeah.. If it wasnt Easter, Sunday was the most sinful day I ever had this whole year.. lets see... after midnight mass, we headed to the Tay's for some nice pork knuckle, pork pasta, wild boar curry and kfc.. dang! lol and then night time we headed to Shamus's place where he cooked us a feast.. pork belly, roast lamb, bacon and lamb lasagna and salad... drools... thanks guys for making this weekend great..

This morning however, I woke up feeling really anxious, probably because of all the food i ate last night. You know they say you get nightmares when you eat too full and sleep. LOL now i know..

well yeah.. so i spent the morning watching tv and trying to get some work done.. but the thing about me is that when I am alone.. i tend to day dream a lot.. or drift away in thought... and i realized something this morning... I dont know how to be happy.. I really dont anymore.. It's like there's always something wrong with my life.. that now I just seek for problems or drama.. I dont know how to be happy anymore... when something good happens in my life.. I anticipate the next moment where something bad is gonna happen.. because to me.. it feels like.. nah.. this is too good to be true.. something bad is gonna happen next.. seriously.. what kind of feeling or thought is this'??? Is it normal..??? I dont think so..... but i want to be... I want to be happy.. so so happy.. and i am joyful and happy with the Lord... but when it comes to the earthly things and emotional situations.. Im full of doubts and questions.. I need to learn to accept things and be happy.. and the truth is... Now.. i'm really happy... I am... but why do i feel so scared... so afraid of things... or maybe afraid i screw things up and make a big mistake.. or dig my own grave... so much fear... for what???? for nothing....
To be fearless is impossible... but I cannnot keep fearing everything everyday of my life....
It's time for a change in thought, change in attitude, change in life.. and all for the better..

with God first and everything second.. I need this change.. I'm gonna make this change...

i wish i could fly..

2011-04-20T13:51:00.001+08:00

LET ME GO.

2011-04-18T13:42:00.000+08:00

peaches

2011-04-18T10:39:00.000+08:00

i'm glad i finally let it out.
I cant believe the outcome.
I still cant believe it.
thanks :)
for the first time, I'm not afraid.

yoohoo

2011-04-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

it's like screaming into a hollow tunnel.

i cant believe u did that to her. seriously. You, of all people. Should know better.
After everything u've been through. All these years. You're throwing it away and u dont even see it.
One day it's gonna smack u in the face. If only u see it now.
Sorry to say,
but u made the biggest mistake of ur life.

sizzle

2011-04-07T20:11:00.000+08:00

breathe in.. breathe out.. so i've been feeling the pressure lately and a lot of things have been getting to me.. at first i thought focusing on my work would be good and it was going fine for awhile.. until work itself became stressful.. be optimistic... be optimistic... keep telling myself that.. but i dunno which is worst.. supressing the hate and fear or succumbing to it.. so i decided to do both.. i was calm for awhile.. then the screaming shouting and crying kicked in. LOL! yes im laughing.. cause its funny.. its funny how i give advice that sometimes i myself find it hard to take.. but thats life.. and "if u can dish it, u gotta be able to take it".. so this time i will... i dished it all out to God and damn He had a lot to take alright.. and i'm taking everything else all in slowly... one thing at a time.. times are hard now but i know they will get better.. i just know.. right now i just gotta get my priorities right and succeed where i wanna succeed in and grow personally and spiritually where i need to..

*prays hard that this positive attitude is not due to the overdoes of starbucks..please last..please last..*

yeah but well.. i gotta get things on track.. yeaps. period.
Back to studying. Computer and AI test tomoro. erh.
A piece of advice people.. dont choose a subject just because all ur friends are in it..
that's all.
peace :)

imet

2011-04-02T12:03:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel like he gets me when im down. only him.

the hardest

2011-04-01T19:13:00.001+08:00

when u have to do whats right

2011-03-31T19:51:00.000+08:00

truth

2011-03-29T20:55:00.002+08:00

this is soooo YOU~

2011-03-23T20:10:00.001+08:00

After Uni,

In Reality,

HAR HAR!

2011-03-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

The whole world is flooding tumblr!!! This is so cute!

it says,

"We'll be back shortly. We may have forgotten to feed the wild Tumbeasts that roam our datacenter, resulting in gnawing and/or mutiny. Animal control has been alerted"

Day oh Day,
Please get better :(

ahem~

2011-03-22T20:59:00.000+08:00

Dear GREYS,

Thank you for your time,
Regards.

For you~

2011-03-20T01:47:00.003+08:00

I havent been blogging for a long time now. Mainly because I dont have the time. Or i'm afraid of how people might think I have changed a lot over the past few years and I definitely have. I suddenly realized, why on earth am I hiding when i'm so much better now than before?
Well, few days ago, someone gave me my reason to blog again and I wanna say thanks.

People inspire each other even when you least expect it.

and u inspired me to keep blogging. Thank you :)
I felt like this song related to me before.
Hope you like it too :)

I took my love, I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
'Til the landslide brought me down 
Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life? 
Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older, too 
Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older, too
 Well, I'm getting older, too
So, take this love, take it down
Oh, climb a mountain and turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well, the landslide will bring it down
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills...
Well, maybe...Well, maybe...Well, maybe.... the landslide will bring you down

quote reading again-

2011-03-13T10:40:00.000+08:00

I never knew until that moment how bad it could hurt to lose something you never really had.
~ The Wonder Years

You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you cannot close your heart to things you don't want to feel
- unknown

somethings need courage. My heart goes out to you.

2011-03-08T02:04:00.002+08:00

Letter to self

2011-03-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

of what not

2011-03-04T20:57:00.000+08:00

twice my heart breaks, two minutes later it hurts, two hours later i'm angry, two days later i'm in denial.

Story of my life

a familiar feeling~

2011-02-22T10:39:00.000+08:00

ouch

2011-02-18T10:57:00.000+08:00

Ok.. Major tooth ache.. Major Wisdom tooth coming out.. can't close my mouth or talk properly without feeling agonizing pain.. but then again my friend Vik told me this story about having to remove an inch of his jaw bone and scared the creeps out of me.. I thank God it's just a wisdom tooth.. but still.. it's PAINNNN..

Anyways, I was having a conversation with the DJ bunch last night and V in aussie this morning, hoping she has settled down and all.. and now all I am thinking about is how LDR is.. for those who do not know what it means, it's Long Distance Relationship. I mean in the past it was crazy difficult when you wouldnt even be able to see the person yet wait for 3 weeks for a single mail to arrive in the post.. or wait for a random phone call from a public phone with bad reception and lagging time.. but now things have changed and with Skype, BBM, Whatsapp, Ping Chat.. ppl are able to keep in touch and communicate on a daily basis..
So how was it that back then, that even though they could Barely meet each other, the relationship would last for so long.. until one partner comes back 3 years later and they get married..
when nowadays, you hear stories of infidelities and communication difficulties leading to break ups and such..I guess in the end it all comes down to love, commitment and most importantly Trust...
It's not easy to constantly remind urself to make time for a Skype call or to accomodate for time differences, but it is a change that you have to adapt to.. something that you choose to do because of Love.. and because of the relationship.. if u care for ur partner, u would commit to it.. and if the other half is busy.. we have to understand and reschedule the call no? and you know, life goes on.. and your life as well as your partner's life has to move on whether you are together or apart.. and there are going to be other ppl walking in and out of your lives.. Trust is crucial to know that ur other half is not gonna cheat on u.. and that u trust urself to be loyal and faithful...
so complicating right?? gees...My hats off completely to those suffering under LDR..
But like i said yesterday, God has a purpose for all of us.. and everything he does is right in his plan for us.. nothing is a mistake.. whatever we go through is a paving stone to our future.. in building our character to serve our purpose in life..
so, If God brought us together in this relationship, under his Love and Blessing, I trust God and whatever his plans for us throughout this journey, is for his greater good.. and it will be indeed..
a good outcome..

Have Hope :)

fly time fly~

2011-02-17T11:00:00.002+08:00

I am exactly 5 more days away from freedom. Yeaps!! That's finally the end of my internship.. :) 3 Months just Flewwww By.. and i'm gonna say i'm really gonna miss everyone.. The friends I made here in such a short time, really holds a place in my memories forever. It's funny how God chooses the people to walk in and out of your life. The people you would least expect. But I know all of them are chosen to be there for a reason. Whether or not it's a person you like or dislike. God brought them into your life to fulfill HIS greater plan. Not OURS. I guess it's something everyone, especially myself, find it hard to accept sometimes. That the purpose of our lives is not for OURselves but for the greater glory of God. Whether life hurts us, or brings us joy, in the end, we have to fulfill the purpose for us being here. But i'm yet to figure out mine, and to be honest i think many people dont know theirs yet. The common man finds purpose in life by achieving goals, by being successful in both his wealth and his love life. But that however, is man's own definition of life for himself. Not God's. So in the end it all boils down to the decision on whether we are gonna continue walking through this life living it OUR way..or are we gonna except that this life is not for US. But in actualy truth, we are living it out for God and to achieve his purpose of putting us here. What do i do next?

My 40 days have just begun.

No strings Attached

2011-02-16T16:11:00.001+08:00

So last week Mr.A and I went to watch "No Strings Attached". A new romantic comedy based on a couple or based on the story, two people who were "just friends" sleeping together with no implications and no commitments. Basically, "Friends with Benefits".

I think that from the many many many romantic comedies and tv series in the past, which took on this plot of Friends with Benefits, we all knew the ending of the show before it even begun. Obviously the girl and guy were gonna get together regardless, if not it wouldn't be a romantic comedy anymore.

However, to all kids out there. As much as we would like to believe in love and in fairy tales or in romantic comedies, it doesnt work out this way in real life. I mean seriously, it would most probably play out as the guy and girl sleeps together. One doesnt want to commit. The other wants to. One breaks up and moves on to find another Friend with Benefit. The other gets heart broken.
Yeaps. That sounds more like the reality i know in this world.

Anyways, But yet the trailer looked funny so we had to watch the movie.
And it really was funny to a certain extent. Though the character played by Natalie Portman was rather weird throughout the movie. I think it suited the role in a weird manner. Ashton Kutcher never failed to portray his usual crazy character or maybe just his true self throughout the movie.

There were parts of the movie that made us laugh our guts off and there were other stand stills in the movie but overall I would recommend you to watch it.
Although I would advice you to brace yourself from seeing Ashton Kutcher wearing nothing but a small dish towel around his @#$&

still..

2011-02-09T12:05:00.000+08:00

I knew it all along and I knew it was a fact I was different and I have changed.. but I couldn't decide whether it was change for the better or the worst. All the more I couldnt Figure out What changed.. but I knew i felt different.. but now i see some things which i miss.. I dont talk about my feelings anymore or do i feel like feeling or talking in general.. When i hurt, I suck it up or put it in a bubble which I dont wanna touch.. I runaway because it's easier and I dont talk about things because generally I have nothing to say.. my mind blanks out frequently and I dont feel like I know what i'm doing or whether i'm doing the right thing in life.. I'm lost in my own mind and thoughts and I cant find my way out.. but I miss me.. I miss being confident.. being happy.. being dependant and independant at the same time.. I wish people were still around and I wish that life didn't take a turn on me.. I wish that I didnt take one two steps too far away from the people who cared for me in my life and I wish I held on tighter to those that I let go.. I wish I didn't lose touch with everyone from high school and I wish I remembered to keep in touch with the people I promise to.. but somehow in the end I blank out.. I forget everything.. what I did yesterday.. or what i felt.. or what I thought I'd do.. my plans.. my dreams.. my experiences.. I DONT KNOW.. but I know that something inside me hurts.. and I dont know what to do.. I'm sorry I never told anyone this.. and I'm sorry even more sorry I didn't tell You.. I'm sorry that I kept it in.. and no.. it's not something You can fix.. it's not something anyone can fix.. no one but God.. yet i'm afraid.. maybe i'm afraid God wont forgive me.. even though I know he will.. or i'm afraid that I would do the same thing again even after he forgives me.. the pain of not forgiving myself.. maybe that's what I feel? or is it emptiness or loneliness? Or hatred.. or anger.. I dont know.. I DONT KNOW.. I wish i knew.. but yet it's still there.. I just need the world to know i'm not perfect and i'm sorry to those who thought of me to be more perfect or more positive.. at least u know now that i am just human..

sigh.. I need to start letting out more..

... and please dont ask me about this. I just need to express myself freely without having to explain myself...

Again~

2011-02-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
And when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone .....

Lady Antebellum - Never Alone

*tears

I dont know

2011-01-22T14:31:00.002+08:00

But i feel Different..

Christmas!

2010-12-27T00:19:00.001+08:00

Annual Christmas Lunch

A day of joy, loving and giving,

Family, Friends and all that matter,

food, presents and full of laughter :)

Thanks all that celebrated this christmas with me :)

Little Manda and me :)

Loves u both!

always the same smile and always ready for the camera. lol

thanks for coming guys :)

loves :)

haha cute

EARLY Christmas Morning. lol

Post Midnight's mass party :)

Good food + Good company = Good party

sampan! :P

Wishing Li was here :)

omg!

2010-12-22T00:36:00.000+08:00

omg omg omg! my laptop is fixed!! Weeeee :)haha well time to update the world. i'm working now and i'm having a blast even though sometimes it's dead boring and work can be a real drag.. but i guess meeting new people and good people to be exact, made things a lot better.. plus it doesn't hurt to have a little income. though my first pay check is already gone. FTW.. haha..

well a lot of things have been happening. There's rally which was a blast even though it was bloody tiring, and there were a lot of hicccups on the way, but lets just say that God always pulls through and he made it big this time :) It was an awesome rally which touched many hearts and i never felt closer to God then i do now :) Which feels pretty darn amazing... Hope this never goes away :P

Hmm.. then there was carolling with my BEC members, SFX BEC members and the community around my area. It was pretty good!! even though we had so few practices and i swore we sounded horrible during the practices.. on that day it wasn't too bad at all. haha Thanks Dear, Devan and Ming for coming :)

what else happened!? oh yeah! Advent Christmas party which soooo many ppl attended.. and there was sooo much of food!!! 10 turkeys, 3 roast pigs and 3 roast lambs.. hahaha lets just say that my tummy was beyonnndddd full.. lol and the performances were great and the night ended well..
and Guess who came home that day?? GREYS!!!

Weeee!! i have a life again!!!
2011.. i'm ready for u :)

WOW

2010-12-09T21:38:00.000+08:00

Right. This blog is SOOO DEAD.

Sorry. I started working and somehow havent found the time to do ANYTHING.

OH MY GAWD la.. Now i know how my dad felt like.

Is it too early to have a mid life crisis?

Or an early retirement?

GRrrr..

I'll start blogging again when i get my life back.

toodles for now.

Bye world

Happy Potty :)

2010-11-21T22:26:00.001+08:00

Yesterday the bunch went to watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows PART 1. lol. i'm bolding and enlarging that because I being the brilliant person i was, didn't even know the movie was in two parts and so i was watching it intensely before the movie abruptly ended, leaving me with the.. "NOOOOoooo........" feeling for having to wait one whole year to see the ending. Darn money making hollywood. Grrrrr.

Besides that, i think it was a good movie. Being a Harry Potter fan, this movie is a definite must-see. It may not be as action packed as the previous movies but the story line itself is good. Although according to FattyBum it differs from the book a little but then again, that is always the case isn't it.

It's funny though watching the characters all grown up compared to the first show. haha. I wonder how they gonna do the sequel now that Emma Watson is close to being bald. lol

Overall i would rate this movie a good one and reccomend u guys to watch it :)

Torch/Digi Review :)

2010-11-17T12:11:00.000+08:00

Ok so I got the Torch recently and here are some reviews about it. I read some reviews online too and trying it out for myself i found the pros and cons to the awesomely looking phone. *coughs*

For the design of the phone and its touchscreen, i'll give a 5 star cause i'm biased and i really love it. haha. now into the hardware. Like i expected, the functions do lag a bit but not as much as my old phone does. In general, it moves pretty fast and does not take long to set up a program. Games on the other hand, take a longer time to load and to close. I am still learning the functions to the phone but i like the layout of the icons and the phone is pretty user friendly to a "noob" like me. haha.

The biggest, largest, most annoying downside to this phone is the battery life which does not last long at all. After three hours of internet browsing your battery life can sink by around 75%. and i'm not joking. My friends who are using the Sony Ericson and Blackberry Curve also comment that their battery life doesn't last long so i'm thinking it's a common problem. However, i dont think that the problem is as severe as this phone. Therefore, when you're not using the internet, it is adviced to switch off your 3G and your bluetooth and to set your backlight to a minimum.

Overall, i still love this phone and i dont mind carrying around my charger in my handbag :P haha. However, Blackberry should really make a move on this problem and come up with a new battery to replace this one. In that case the customers would be satisfied and they might even receive more customers in the future..

Digi Smart Plan

So i bought this phone under contract with digi and i was the first 300 customer to the outlet in SS2, lining up outside the shop in the morning which a whole bunch of other jakuns and finally getting my phone 3 hours later was indeed all Worthit :) heehee. It was fun though lining up with daddy and watching some really kiasu ppl work. Like i was seated right next to this guy who was butt kissing the worker at the shop and talking about all different kinds of phones, then persuading him to help him to go first cause his boss was complaining and what not. Gees man... some ppl are just inconsiderate.. Well you got work.. TOO BAD.. Life is unfair..

go to www.digi.com.my for more information.

Anyways, back to the plan. It is a really good deal for heavy internet users and facebook addicts like me. haha. A monthly payment of RM78 is more than enough for me to browse my favourite sites, facebook, and sent emails in my busy hectic life. The internet is fast wherever i go and the signal is good. Downloads are also fast :) Compared to other service providers, i found Digi to be the most value for money :)

Boo :)

2010-11-17T11:50:00.000+08:00

Rise and Shine world :) it's a brand new day. K i know i havent been blogging cause i havent had much time in from of the computer itself. cause now i've only been facebooking. teehee. So monday i wake was the free-st day i had since forever, went shopping with Mr. A and watched Megamind!!! I loved it! it was soooo adorably cute and lame.. omg.. Lame is the right word.. haha. and it's SOO my thing to be lame. haha. Anyways, the show and the plot was pretty cliche and you can predict the underlining story in the first five minutes, but there is a twist somewhere towards the climax which mades things interesting and funnier.. Good show.. :) Plus i kinda like knowing that u can always find something good in something bad..

Next was lumch with the Godsis at Tbowl. OMG.. imagine eating out of a toilet bowl, sitting on toilet bowls, eating on a bathtub table, and having ice cream in the shape of shit. Literally =S lol well overall i would rate the food to be at least 2 stars =S cause i'm not really into that whole Hong Kong style food and all. But creativity and Level of Disturbance to the eyes and Mind.. i'll give it 3 stars.. LOL. but worth a try out to have a good laugh with your friends.. :)

stolen from Google Image

Stolen from Google Image

It was a good game of badminton last night with myself and the Ol' Man Marc feeling all achy and breaky.. haha. After a few shouts of pain and frustration, i think we manage to pull through a few games after being whooped by Mikey and Godsis. LOL. *shy*

So Today is another day ahead that i'm waiting to get my ass of this couch and get a move on... If i ever will.. ppbbtthh.. Church later! toodles!

OOOoooo

2010-11-13T07:06:00.000+08:00

Three hours of sleep and waking up to NOOOO Exams is soooo worthit :) haha..

hmm.. what should i do today.. oh yeah ok besides going church.. i have...... studying?? HELL NOO!!

lol.. it's a weight lifted off my shoulders.. well not to say the exam went great or anything but i think i'm coming to my acceptance now.. lol.. plus.. being able to talk to the bestie far far away helps. lol..

I need retail therapy!!!!!

GODSIS ARE YOU READING THIS???? lol
and greys.. omg.. please stop shopping.. lol

and my new fav word

BBwhoring :)

hahahha

i should copyright this.

lol

12/11/2010

2010-11-13T02:25:00.000+08:00

Today was a ~~Good~~ bad day.. considering my exams are finally over.. i'm still dreadfully thinking about the paper i had in the morning.. but it's ok.. time to get my mind off things and start my new life with my new digital companion.. ekeke *winkz* will update all soon! nitey nitey :) or good morning :)

P.S.. I love you Digi, Thanks for my new Toy :)

MUST WATCH. OMG Hilarious!

2010-11-07T12:56:00.002+08:00

finally found the voice to speak for me

2010-11-07T11:58:00.002+08:00

So Long Past~

2010-11-05T09:13:00.000+08:00

Woohoo. Space!

The years just keep coming

2010-10-31T18:42:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Big Brother

Cant believe you're so old when

You act like a 12 year old kid. lol

The waffle cake his friends surprised him with.

and the X3 too. gees

there's no party without food :)

Loves :)

2010-10-29T09:42:00.002+08:00

WAKE ME UP

WHEN NOVEMBER

ENDS

5 days and counting~

2010-10-29T01:37:00.001+08:00

work hard, take it away, SHHhh, just keep it, whatever =_='

education. ..|..

HAHA

2010-10-28T10:30:00.000+08:00

http://www.guardian.co.uk/

72~

2010-10-28T01:01:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Grandma! Love you so much!

words cannot express how much u mean to me :)

We surprised my Grandma with a slice of cake. haha

Ian wasn't home. lol

Hummingbird Cake from Whisk :)

Beautiful :)

Frustrated~

2010-10-27T17:13:00.000+08:00

Started off the morning late, but wished my grandma a Happy Birthday :) Love her so much.. and she was so shocked when i jumped in the morning screaming Happy Birthday while waving my hands frantically in the hair. haha classic moment.. Anyways, besides that.. came to uni today to find out that RSH Warehouse Sale is on again and I sooooo been wanting to get a good running shoe for soooo long but cant seem to find a reasonably good one.. plus the old Nike's a bought were making my ankle pain =S erh.. anyways.. the place was SOOO freaking crowded.. and the stuff was ~~Shite~~.. like seriously.. the only thing i saw worthit was slippers and backpacks but by the time u see the cashier queue, u lose all ur mood to shop.. so we ditched that and went for lunch.. Ate at Uncle Seng's in SS15..

here's the noodles. Picture from a blog via google. Thanks vkeong.com

The homemade chilli sauce. Picture from a blog via google. Thanks vkeong.com

Believe it or not it was my first time there.. Mr.A was calling me such a noob.. haha and i went there saying i wasn't hungry at all and ended up eating more than him.. The noodles are homemade and you have to eat it with their homemade chilli sauce which is not too bad.. but personally.. i prefer Chilli Pan Mee way better than Uncle Seng's.. but that's my opinion..

Well i'm back in uni now attempting to study but failing tremendously plus i'm getting annoyed and disturbed every few minutes while trying to focus.. erh.. and seriously.. if u dont wanna study dont come here and chit chat freaking loud... I pity the people who are having their exams tomoro and they are trying so hard to concentrate.. Thank God mine is next week of heads will be rolling... lool

This is why i dont study at home

Reverse Psychology for Love

2010-10-25T13:13:00.002+08:00

Dedicated to you~

2010-10-24T11:39:00.000+08:00

If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me

Takotsubo Cardiomyopathy~

2010-10-24T11:07:00.001+08:00

just because~

2010-10-23T12:36:00.002+08:00

Just awhile ago i started college and before u know it i'm in university and now in third year and soon to graduate and work and think of getting married and settting down and having kids and planning education and buying houses and buying cars and selling cars and finally growing old and forgetting where it all started in the first place.. Time Flies before u can even catch your breathe.. and i keep telling myself i'm gonna enjoy the moment but how much of it am i really enjoying? or trying to enjoy without getting stressed or frustrated or hurting someone.. Time Flies.. and we need to start cherishing every single moment, every single person, anyone who loves you, anyone you love back, anyone you hate or hates you, anyone you forgive and anyone you forget.. it's time to cherish and it's time to move on..

but hold on tight to the memories..

hold on tight to the lessons you've learnt..

hold on tight to your courage and strength..

hold on tight to your faith..

and your beliefs..

and you'll never ever lose yourself..

ever.

Come On Baby "Torch" My Fire~

2010-10-23T01:49:00.004+08:00

The old 60's hit 'Light My Fire' by The Doors took the storm back in it's days when that famous line was unendingly played in radios and being sung repeatedly by our parents and grandparents. However, I took the liberty of putting it to good use by making a little change on my own. Let's replay the song in our heads..

"Come on Baby Torch My Fire.. Come On Baby Torch My Fire.. "

Now that sounds more like it. *winks*

The new generation took on this era with a whole new meaning to technology and media communication with the advancement in Mobile Phones and Smartphones. Not to mention doing so with the emphasis of style and efficiency. But no matter where we are heading and where we came from..

We've got only one to thank..

BLACKBERRY

Oh yes, what has our world come to that now we drool, shiver and restlessly anticipate Blackberry's every move to release its latest technology..

and now.. it's finally here....Introducing....

BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800

So here's what i LOVE about the BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800, being a 3rd Year Engineering Student, life is constantly on the go with the many assignments and course work, what more with an upcoming internship, i constantly need to be on my feet and in contact with the world. Furthermore, i love taking part in singing groups and events which take up a lot of my time. Sometimes i barely even get to talk to my parents or my brothers for days even though we live in the same house!

Therefore, with the BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800 I would be able to keep in touch with my loved ones while i'm constantly on the go!! How convinient is that!?! Furthermore, a smartphone like the BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800 would be able to organize my hectic lifestyle and help me to communicate with my coursemates. What’s more, the latest new BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800 is the 1^st smartphone with a BlackBerry® keyboard and full 3.2 inch touch screen with an on-screen keyboard and also a slide out keyboard. What more can you ask for? *Faints*

I Love this phone because with it's Maximized Multimedia 8 GB memory and 512 MB onboard memory, i would be able to store my media files, pictures of my friends and family which are moments that can never be replaced and memories to last a lifetime.

The 5 Megapixel camera is more than i can ever ask for considering the first camera i ever received was a 1.3 megapixel camera which ran on two AA batteries. Yes i know, life was sad.. haha. But now imagine this, 5MP camera which comes with a flash, continuous auto-focus and image stabilization, plus 11 photo modes and video recording, all in your smart sexy

looking BB phone. OOOooo *drools*

My friends and family members have all gone to study and work overseas and i barely get to talk to them. With the cost of RM 0.50 per sms, lets just say i've been burning holes in my wallet trying to keep in touch with my best friends and my family. With the 512 MB onboard memory, Tri-band 3G HSDPA networks, UMTS networks and Quad-band GSM/GPRS/EDGE networks, i would be able to communicate and access the internet so much faster.

With the BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800 i would have a faster and richer browsing with easy access to Facebook, Linkedin, Buzzd and Twitter. I can even open them in multiple tabs to multitask! "OH what a Dream :)"

Being a Facebook and Blogger addict, i can now update my status and blog my thoughts whenever and wherever i feel like it. Now, I'm the type of person that when inspired, i'm bursting to speak my mind and nothing would stop me...except for the abscence of a computer and internet. Hence, with the the BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800 i would be able to do what i Love with no problems at all! :)

The BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800 has caught my eye like no other..

and i'm clearly in LOVE with it..

Like a Proud Mama seeing her baby for the first time or like a hungry lioness waiting to pounce on its prey or even like your truly staring at a box of unresistable fattening chocolates..

This is much more than that..

BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800

(Check out more details of the Torch @BlackBerry Torch 9800 Slider Phone)

WHAT'S HAPPENING?

Now Celcom Blackberry gives you the BEST DEALS IN TOWN and the widest coverage wherever you go! Celcom introduces the

Celcom Exec 50 plan, where you can get connected with Celcom from as love as RM50 a month!

Check this out! Here's some of the amazing benefits you get:

15 sen call rate to ANY number. Yeaps! that's right.. to ALL numbers!
Automatic discounts every month.
Talk more, save more. The more you use, the more you receive discounts of up to 30% every month
Low monthly commitment of only RM50.
FREE Celcom Broadband Basic Plan for 1 month with speeds of up to 384 Kbps

You can also,

Be the 1^st to own it with Celcom Exec postpaid plans!

Be the 1^st 100 customers to pre-register & purchase the new BlackBerry® Torch™ 9800 today to enjoy the early bird promotion exclusively with Celcom Exec Postpaid plan. Get FREE:

Jabra Bluetooth Headset worth RM125
8GB Micro SD Card worth RM68
Energizer Portable worth RM58

Celcom Blackberry Torch 9800 Launch Event!

Yes, Celcom will be launching the Blackberry Torch 9800 this 28 October 2010. There’ll be amazing deals for the Blackberry Torch when you sign up with Celcom – at the event only! There’ll also be many other fun activities, prizes and giveaways on the day.

So don’t wait, there's plenty to miss out on if you dont go. It's the happening spot and event to end this month with a bang!! :)

Customers can now pre-register at:

http://www.celcom.com.my/celcomexec/blackberry/bbtorch9800_register.php

So, stay ahead with Blackberry on Celcom – the fastest, widest, clearest mobile network! Celcom is Malaysia’s No.1 Blackberry provider, with the best Blackberry smartphones and plans!

So Check out the Blackberry Torch with Celcom Postpaid plans @ http://www.celcom.com.my/celcomexec/blackberry/bbtorch9800.php!

On a personal note, every year for the past five years I have been attending a Youth Camp out in the middle of the forest in a place called The Farm, with no reception and no internet. However, believe it or not, five years ago, Celcom was the only network that was able to get a signal from within the campsite! I remember my friends and I desperately running around the farm trying to find a "good spot" to send an sms to our parents back home, and watching enviously at my neighbour having a celcom line that was able to connect anytime. This proves how advanced the Celcom network was five years ago! Just imagine the improvements today! :)

So what are you Waiting for?

Right~

2010-10-18T10:57:00.001+08:00

super cute :)

2010-10-16T15:35:00.001+08:00

2010-10-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

assignments~

2010-10-14T21:31:00.001+08:00

RRRRROOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just needed to let that out....

HAHA

2010-10-13T21:42:00.000+08:00

Fly Fly Firefly~

2010-10-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

WOW.time flies. i know i promised to post more faster but apparently i didn't. argh! i'm mixed with emotions. Lets see.

I'm HAPPY that GodSis is back from France!! Wee! or is it Vi? or Wi? WHATEVER.. Glad u're back babes!!
I'm SAD that Greys has left for UK.. and even sadder that i havent heard from her.. YES YOU! Grr..
I'm DEPRESSED that finals are so freaking close but i havent started studying yet cause i'm still swamped with assignments.
i'm ANGRY that the university is allowing so many assignments to be given out when it's less than 3 weeks away from finals! i mean seriously!! how much stress does a person need?
I'm THRILLED that i went for NIKE KL City Run 10.10.10!! It was an awesome experience with 9000 other monkeys running and dashing through the streets of KL.I didn't place top three but i was happy with my time..
until i found out the winning times.. 1st (0:48:17), 2nd (0:52:23), 3rd (054:24)
SUPER FRUSTRATED! Because i was so lazy to run that i walked and also cause i thought a lot of ppl beat my time edi so i gave up.. omg.. i should've ran... i could've made it!!! AHHHH!!!!
I'm in PAIN cause my tummy is giving me issues and it hurts! sniff
I'm SCARED that i'm putting on so much weight i might not fit into anymore of my clothes. =S
I ENVY my brother because he gets to go for Adam Lambert and i cant cause my assignment is due the next day!! Grrrr...
I'm DELIGHTED for cousin Aly who is gonna be performing in SHOUT! The Mod Musical

yeaps.. that's my emotions right now.. lol. here's some pics from the past events. LOVE all!

NIKE KL City Run :)

we're Ready!!

KL at 6.00 am

so crowded =_=

They one hour peeps. lol.

Survivors.lol

our cute Finisher's Awards :)

Experimental Project- Wind Tunnel

Daniel thought he could fix the tunnel. HAHAHA.

CX the power supplier and the Labview Pro. lol

Arvind.. the......... okla.. this was taken after a hard day's work. haha

This is JoWee after eating Two burgers.. it's funny how food can finally turn this energizer bunny off.. lol

Doing what they do best. lol.
AH PAY at far right is Mr. Centre-seeking.. hahaha

This was RM1 whopper day.. Damn.. and this was only half the line =_='

hey world.. hey reality

2010-10-03T11:50:00.001+08:00

sorry i've havent updated in a long time. It has been a hectic couple of weeks and so full of emotions you have no idea.. really..stressed and emotional.. sounds like me.. this blog cannot get any more depressing right now.. lol.. anyways.. my bestie left for UK two days ago and i already feel super lost =S usually if i have a thought about something or go through something funny that i know relates to her.. i'd message her.. and now i pick up my phone to do so and realize.. oh shit.. i cant.. ERRHH!!! sorry.. emo please.. but yeah.. Greys, just so u know.. you are deeply missed and we're all praying and wishing u luck k! you can do it! *thumbs up*

The super last minute surprise dinner for Mich by her mummy dearest. lol

who on earth goes to a surprise party wearing the same outfit?? lol.. and mind u we did not buy it at the same time.. and i can't believe we both wore leggings!! lol

Cause i'm leavin' on a train.. lol

bye che..

Day of Goodbyes

The Final Say..

*tears*

Teehee

2010-09-17T00:54:00.000+08:00

CINDERELLA DID NOT

GOOGLE

PRINCE CHARMING

Hope

2010-09-13T19:12:00.000+08:00

funny!

2010-09-11T22:00:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya :)

2010-09-11T20:04:00.000+08:00

This year's raya was at Uncle Ramlan's house again cause our usual Raya host and family were off to Switzerland for two months! Jealous! >.< lol. but yeah.. the usual eating and family chit chat was going on. love spending time with my cousins when we talk silly things and take lots of pictures cause we love it :P ekeke.. and my new baby serves me well in taking pictures.. though i'm still getting used to it and learning it's functions.. lol. worst part is that today i went Pavilion with Greys and found out that you can get a compact camera with higher resolution and pixels for a cheaper prize than my dslr.. i mean seriously.. technology nowadays is insane and whats the point buying something so expensive when something new is gonna come out again! EEeee! annoyance! on another note.. i join the Horse-bag gang.. *teehee* thanks baby! love ya loads! muah.. and Godsis! it's time u join the clan! lol. go buy one in France! lol Here's what my days has been like..


Jaden :)

1Malaysia! akaka

Ian with Neil and Jaden

With Cally and Alyssa :)

SUMO! lol

Album cover.

Album cover 2.

the uncles

Alden :)

Relatives.

stand and watch

2010-09-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

I'm not afraid,

to take a stand,
Everybody,

come take my hand
We'll walk this road together,

through the storm,
Whatever weather,

cold or warm,
Just let you know that,

you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

A new Beginning

2010-09-05T12:32:00.000+08:00

Love the Lord Your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind and with all your strength :)

Another one celebrates!

2010-09-04T01:47:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMMIE!!

omg u're old!! wakakaka.. just kidding..

Hope u had a good "surprise" lol.. thanks to roeshan. haha

and hope u enjoyed the lunch at our favourite place..

MAMAK.. lol.. seriously.. JYM has issues with mamaks..

haha.. anyways.. God bless you always..

you're a wonderful person with a wonderful heart..

MAKE IT A GREAT BIRTHDAY!


the best pic captured. haha. nice smile babes!

haha.. the Tay's.. look at the character difference.. lol

deciding where to eat

the genius.. lol.. "genius" Roeshan.. lol

Chrishen's first air bandung float.. lol.. and it was my treat.. small boy la the fella.. hahahah

i swear famous Amos cookies are getting smaller and smaller!! Rip off!!

caren's interrogation.. lol


the cake surprise that said.."Happy Birthday Grumpy!" hahaha

and we FINALLY got the grumpy face out of her! hahaha.. The candle smoke was good effect no?? lol

Hope you had a great Birthday babes! and Happy Merdeka too! haha

God Bless!

another one

2010-09-01T22:21:00.000+08:00

tomoro tomoro tomoro~

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Happy Birthday you guys! :)

2010-08-31T13:42:00.001+08:00

Yesterday we celebrated the trio's birthdays.. Nigel, Nicholas and Neil.. haha.. it was a blast and a much needed stress relief for me.. Had fun with my cousins.. Tan, Yam,Titi, Marcus and Marc.. *0..0..7.. Bang!* Marcus... Bang? Bang? bang? hahahah.. happy birthday you three :) Love ya'll loads and hope u had a good time! Loves!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIGEL, NICHOLAS and NEIL!


Its family :)

Happy!

Lovessss! :)

it's such a classic i had to put it up.. haha, sorry Aunt V!

It's a SM thing. lol

HAd so Much fun guys! thanks! HUgs! Love All!

To Nigel.. All the best when u go back yeah.. dont forget us here.

study hard k?? :)

Loves!

Looking through my lenses :)

2010-08-29T11:59:00.000+08:00

My favourite model :)

Wheee :)

All praise and glory to God :)

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

2010-08-28T18:50:00.002+08:00

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In Reference to No.10 in my previous post ....

Daddy.. i LOVE you to bits =)

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